worst has yet to come!!!!!

i tot tat i had the worst but nvr notice tat the stupid o level is cumin!!!!!! wat is stress?!!!!! can any wise man define wat is stress?!!!! it is such a waste of time!!!!!! after having n level and now is the o level!!!!! y cant they put all the examinations altogether, instead of separating them all up!!!!! i had been in sch for so many yrs for so many examinations yet i cant made myself to escape from any1 of them!!!!!!

n tat shinling, can u stop tellin me all the things abt the sch that u r teachin!!!!!! now i can even help u tell every1 wat u told me...... i think u dun need a tape recorder for the things that u told me....... i think u onli need me to tell them can liao.......

what the hell am i doin?!!!!!

hahahahahahaha!!!!!!! i think that i m goin crazy...... i keep callin the wrong ppl wif the wrong names....... i keep doin the wrong things which i use to get it rite....... y m i so blur like a sotong....... btw the person who gave the comment for yesterday, can u kindly tell me who u r..... thks for the consoling..... i feel only a bit better 2day..... n it jus only for 2day...... cos my cousin jus strike lottery....... hahahaha...... but too bad it is not i win...... if i win, i surely even happier than any1 else......

starting a new life

trying,trying,trying...... trying my very best to start a very new life...... trying to adapt a life without anything to support myself........ trying my best to study and get the best results........ but i noe tat i m not that kind of material to be in jc....... but today i had been pressurize by my cousin again...... she told me tat no matter wat i had to go to jc if not, i will haf to go wk....... i lead i very different life without my aunt....... with my aunt, they will nvr try to force or pressurize me to do anything which i dun like....... now i had to adapt it....... i dunno how to be a a person who can blend nicely into the society...... i think i will surely die if i was left out there without any help or support....... now i m wondering again..... HOW THE M I GOIN TO START NEW LIFE?!!!!!!! I MIGHT AS WELL DIE!!!!!!

where the hell did my life support gone to???????

no matter how i still cant find my life support........ where the hell did the photo that i had took wif my aunt.......... that is the only photo that i had with her....... why am i so careless?!!!!!!!! how the hell am i goin to find a new support?!!!!! jus hope that i m able find the solution as soon as possible.......... haiz...... sob.........

rottin my whole life from now on.........

can any1 of u tell me how m i goin to handle my life from now on when i dun even noe wat to do....... depression was nvr my style of wking.......... i jus had a fight with my mom n i can tell u tat she really noes how to worsen my depression....... she will b the 1st mother in the whole world whom makes her child to loathe her so much......... y cant my family members jus shut their bloody damn traps up?!!!!!! they r really the pain in the ass like my teachers....... after fighting with her, i went out of my hse n tel her that i will not even c her bloody damn face anymore n i jus went out of my hse n went to my granny hse......... i nvr like her n now she even makes me loathe her even more....... if she is not goin to give me any allowance, den so b it........ i will not die without any money....... it will b even better that i die, den she dun haf to c my bloody damn and me 2....... now i decided to move out of that bloody damn hse n i jus hope tat no idiots is goin to pester me anymore.......

depression has overtake my life

nvr in my life, i had depression..... i hate my life....... i lost the most important thing in my whole life!!!!!!!! the 1 and only photo tat i had took with my benefactor, my aunt..... i rack my bloody damn brain but i still couldnt find that photo....... nobody in my family noes that i got depression cos i didnt decide to tell........ i tryin to keep it to myself but i couldnt........ i had aready tell 3 of my friends........ they r kind enough to cheer me up....... so not to disappoint them, i at least try to force myself to smile......... sum ppl may think that i m crazy( which i think i m)........ it was the only support of my life and i jus couldnt keep it safely........ i m really bloody clumsy and stupid......... i try not to stress myself out but i still fail...... i really dunno wat to do with my life.......... i hate ppl tellin me their secrets........ i dun even noe who to tell....... if i only have the chance to kill myself........ btw when u r giving my any comments....... pls do list a few kinds of killing myself......... thks..........

what had happen to my world???????

now i m pretty damn bored with my life!!!!!!! i dunno wat m i goin to do!!!! ppl in my family kept telling me to go to jc when i m not the kind of material to go to jc!!!!!! all the stupid stress that they r giving r huge which they dun even noe!!!!! n that stupid shinling kept telling me all the rubbish that she had happen to her in the sch!!!!!! sum times i dun even noe wat the hell r all the ppl thinkin cos i hate sch!!!!! the stupid sch seems to be my greatest nemesis!!!!! that's y if any1 ask me wat i fear most, it will be it!!!!!!! i always try to avoid those questions they ask me abt sch!!!!!! i cant stand hearing this word 'school'!!!!!!!! the teachers in the sch r such pain in the ass!!!!!! sumtimes cant even make out wat the hell they r talkin abt!!!!!! they seem to be so caring when actually they r wearing this bloody fake n ugly mask!!!!!!! arghs!!!!!!!!!!!!!