Grave Disease....

Hey, guys... I'm sick again but this time is even more serious... I just found out that I have a disease called the grave disease... It sounds cool, right... Just 2 months before my birthday that I found out that i had this disease and the best part is that I had it since I was a baby and I don't even know it till now.... Haiz... What kind of world is this??? I have to be on long term medication... Out of 15 sypthoms, I have 14 of them.... My doctor told me that her greatest worry is that my white blood cells might decrease and that is definitly not a good sign.... By that time, my neck will swell up and I have to go for operation... Everyone says that I will be fine after the operations, but they are all wrong... My doctor says that i will have relapses so there wont be just 1 scar on my neck but numerous.... And because of this disease, I become a useless person... I can't have a little bit of stress, if not, I would sick.... Then, people will ask me to do work that do not require any mental work... They didn't know that I have no more strength in my limps anymore.... The moment I carry something heavy(used to be very light for me before knowing that I got this disease), my limps will ache, they will be strengthless(for example; can't even pick up a fork)... I feel sad inside but I can't tell anyone because I don't want anyone to worry about me.... So I could only pour my sorrows here.... I sounded so patheic.... Ciao.... Hope that the next time I will post a happy entry and not the one with many bad news....