argh!!!! i m ill again!!!!!

y m i always fall ill rite after my exams!!!!! darn it!!!! i jus hate it so much!!!!! how i will i m illness free so that i wont fall ill again n again!!!!! i jus hope that i m able to recover asap cos i wanna go out n find a job of my dream...... i think i m dreamin again!!!!! where in the world ppl is able to find a job of their dream!!!!! it is tooo impossible!!!! but no matter wat i still haf to find a job for myself..... it is not for money, it is for me to gain experience...... if got any lobangs, go ahead n contact me........

jobs....jobs.....jobs......life being mistaken......

wat hell is my com..... i did publish 1 n it did not appear!!!! i haf to redo all to stupid typing again!!!! i jus hope that i m able to find 1 stupid for myself!!!!! i wanna wk easy so my family members told me to wk for them!!!!! of cos , they r from the big companies!!!! a business of their own!!!!! so wat they r rich!!!! i dun wanna depends on family ties to find a job!!!!! i dun wanna be to dependent on them which i used to be!!!!! i was being spoilt n pamper by them!!!!! i was given watever i 1 or need...... i nvr worry about money!!!!!! but now i wanna make a crave of my own!!!! i knew that they dun c me fall..... but here i swear, even if i really fall, i will not find any1 of them for help!!!!!!

jobs....jobs.....jobs......life being mistaken......

wat is my next step to life???

i dunno wat to do next!!!! argh!!!! three more papers to go n it will be the end of my life!!!!! i will haf to go n find a new job!!!!! my fren say tat she will recommend me to work with her but she got sack by her boss!!!! wat a joke!!!! now i haf to go n find a job on my own now....... i cant depend on that fren of my...... she is not really that reliable!!!!! haiz!!!!! now i m findin the job now!!!!! i jus hope that i will be able to find a job by then......

stresssss,,,, stressss,,,,,,, stressss!!!!!!!

y there is stress in this world?!!!!! i jus hate it so much!!!! i jus cant do anything but jus being so bloody damn fed up with everything in this world....... i m so fed up with every1 has done...... even if they did not do anything, i will jus feel like venting my stupid anger on any1 so dun ever try to provoke me....... jus due to the stupid depression, i jus cant slp at nite so i stay up the whole doin nth like i siao gal...... the only 1 person i feel like killing rite now is myself...... how i wish to commit suicide without feeling any pain....... argh!!!!!!! i m in such dilemia......... jus dun judge my stupid spellin cos i dun even bother!!!!!!